I will never understand the point of lying online. Ok, yeah... Lying about your age, maybe. Saying you're 21 when you're 20 about to turn 21... Yeah, ok, that I can get. But stealing someone's pictures and claiming that they're yours? That I don't get. Taking someone's pictures of their tattoos and saying they are your tattoos? What's the point? People who know you in real life will realize you don't have those tattoos pretty quickly, and people who don't know you probably couldn't care less what tattoos you do and don't have.

My life isn't perfect... I have an autoimmune illness that keeps me in constant pain. I'm on chemotherapy and oral immunosuppressants. I spend most of my time working, or on the computer helping other people out. But even with all the "bad" things in my life, they're still part of my life, and I wouldn't lie about them and pretend they aren't there. I like my life. I have a career that I love, I like modeling as a hobby, I have a husband that loves me, and a child that is amazing... I love my pets, I love my car, I like where I live. I'd never go to all the trouble of inventing a life for the Internet that wasn't real, because I'd rather have people know the real me instead of some invented character.

I've come across this a lot over my years on the Internet. I've been battling a girl named Megan Lewis for almost 9 years for stealing my pictures. She uses my pictures to get guys to buy her things off of her wish list, and then calls them perverts. She claims I'm a whore because I "sell my body" since I'm a model. Last time I checked, being a whore meant you charged for sex... And since I'm only whoring for my husband (which is also kind of the point of being married...) I think the term doesn't really apply. Megan's big thing now is pretending that she's not hurting anyone since there are "worse criminals" that I should be worried about... Yeah, worse criminals, like the guy who she ripped off and he recognized me in a mall. What a fantastic way to fuck up my birthday. When I confronted her about it, she claimed that I made it all up, including the bruises from where he grabbed my arm. She also claimed that I deserved to be raped and killed since I'm "trash" and a slut... Her current favorite attack is saying I'm fat and that she hopes the chemotherapy kills me... Yet me being fat doesn't stop her from stealing my pictures.

Another female (I can't call her a girl, because when you're in your mid-30's, you should know better...), Rachel Kemp, has been stealing pictures of my tattoos and claiming they are hers. Every time I bust her for using my pictures, she claims I'm "stalking and harassing" her, and that I'm just jealous of her. Yes, I'm jealous of someone who lies about their age, faked a pregnancy for attention, and claimed they were going to "medical school" for their PHd... At a community college. She uses the same pictures she's been using for the last 10 years... Claiming they're recent. She faked having lupus and endometriosis, and when confronted, she said she "accidentally" typed that she had both illnesses. I'm sorry, but can anyone explain how you accidentally type that you have incurable, extremely painful illnesses on an xtube profile? I haven't quite figured that one out yet. She's been claiming for years that she was going to have me arrested, and I'd be sued for slander, or that the cops were on their way to my "apartment" to arrest me for harassing her... Strange that nothing has happened in the 10 years she's been obsessing over my life. The absolute best line was her claiming she went before a judge and got a restraining order on me... On Labor Day... At 5pm... Pretty sure all the courts are closed then, but we won't let a little thing like reality get in the way.

The most pathetic part in all this... I'm targeted because I don't lie. I'm open about my illness, because I'm involved in several online communities for my illness. I try to answer questions honestly to raise awareness about lupus and other autoimmune illnesses. I'm an advocate of funding experimental research because there is still so little known about the immune system, and there really aren't a lot of great treatments out the for autoimmune illnesses. But because I'm open and honest, I'm hated. I'm targeted and called a liar because people think that if you have an incurable illness, your life stops. I made a choice to fight, and to not let my illness rule my life. I don't let it get in the way. Yeah, I get sick sometimes. Yes, I've had a couple of heartbreaking miscarriages because of my illness. I would never dare to use a miscarriage as an attack on someone else, but yet Rachel and Megan, the two who claim to be perfect little Christians, use my miscarriages to attack me. They use my illness to attack me. They lie about my child and my husband, they lie about things I've done... For what? Because I'm real? What's the point?

I get not being happy with your life... But lying about it and attacking other people for not lying isn't the answer. Change yourself, work on yourself, motivate yourself to get the things you want... Don't try to demean someone who is content with their life simply because you aren't content with yours.